Before I close out this season of focusing on this issue and move on to other things on my feed- it would be good for many here to get a wake up call to what the real face of suicide looks like. Not the “crazed madman type” that naive people make them out to be or the “passive victims to sickness,” as if they were a dying cancer patient.

Most are very planned out, come with notes and things left in order (even making the bed or cleaning up the house first)—— they are in full control and sanity.

As a matter of fact, many like Bill Zeller, founder of MyTunes, wanted his note circulated so people would know he wasn’t “crazy” and know his reasons. Also, consider the Netflix show “13 Reasons” which glories suicide by showing the well-thought out reasons as to why a teen murdered themself (which has already led to more teens committing suicide to imitate the show).


The reason so many people write before taking their life is so people like you and I would know that they were not crazy and to assure us it is not like dying of cancer— they want the world to know it was their choice (even to the way they would do it— hoping it wouldn’t fail or be too messy for others to clean up).

They want the world to know they were in control and it was their choice.

Read Bill’s opening lines, “I have the urge to declare my sanity and justify my actions…”

His full letter can be read here:

How about this one, “One of the great ones is leaving this world when you want to and have nothing to live for. I am not insane. My mind was never more clear…”

Source, along with others (notice all the clarity they have to recall all their hatred and bitterness):

Or how about the man who gave a full speech in a press conference and handed out papers to people before shooting himself in front of the cameras—— did he die like a person from cancer?

See the video here—

Or what about the fictional character Romeo, was he crazy or in a similar situation like that of a person dying of cancer- passive and unable to change his circumstances?

Certainly many are in pain, feel hopeless, and want to escape- but none of those feelings or emotions let them off the hook or detour their responsibility. Once again, they know what they are doing and they are making the choice to murder themselves- the vast majority are not “out of their mind” nor even delusional.

The sad truth is suicide is not a violation of their will- it is their will. And it is not a noble thing that a person does nor is it like dying from an illness—— people have 100% of their freewill intact and use it to perform one of the most selfish acts of self-hatred and wrath a person can ever do. They are often times mean spirited towards those around them—- vindictive towards past girlfriends, family, etc.

Is this how a dying cancer patient sounds? “May her guts rot in hell — I loved her so much!” (Married male- 45yrs old- from the source above).

So the next time someone naively tells you suicide is like dying from cancer or something that makes people crazy and overrides their freewill—— remind them of the people who went out of their way to show them otherwise.


John 10:10, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.”

Proverbs 8:35-36, “35 For whoever finds me finds life and obtains favor from the Lord, 36 but he who fails to find me injures himself;
all who hate me love death.”


If you are considering suicide please reach out to Lauren Scienski at asap- we want to help! God is with you and is the answer to your anguish. We love you and desire to see you live an abundant life with Jesus!